A glance out of the window and on first appearance we are still deep in winter. The trees bare, the sky (mostly) grey. It’s cold and I am tired. There’s an intense longing inside me for Spring. I don’t remember it’s pull ever being this strong before.
Anxiety has been an unwelcome friend of late. I’ve been leaning into what I know will help. Walks in the woods. A cup of tea in the garden, turning my face up to meet the sun. I can’t stay out for long. The cold is still bitter, but the fresh air helps.
I’ve found myself feeling quite reflective these last few days. In January I allowed my body to rest. Mirroring the natural world. I wonder if it was enough. Everyone I talk to is tired. Exhausted from years worth of unprecedented times.
But the arrival of February and Imbolc gives me hope. The plants seem to be in a state of rest. But what we can’t see is the regeneration and renewing, taking place quietly beneath the soil, until we see those first tentative shoots of new growth.
A closer look outside and I can see the first hints that spring isn’t too far away. I have a solitary snowdrop in the garden, I’m sure her friends will join her soon. Bulbs are growing; tulips, crocus, daffodils, muscari. It won’t be long until the colour returns.
An unfurling
In 2014 I left my job of almost 10 years to train in reflexology and set up my own business. Now, almost another 10 years on and my path is set to change again. I turn 40 at the end of this year and I’m a very different person to who I was back then.
So February signifies a new chapter in my story. It’s time to plant seeds for the future. In a metaphorical sense, my actual seed collection remains untouched for a while longer. This month I’ll be returning to studying. Working towards the RHS Level 2 Horticulture qualifications. I’ll be closing down my website, instead focusing on my studies and my writing. The future holds a career in gardening and wellbeing for me. In time a new business will unfurl, but my goals and plans for this aren’t yet clear.
“And suddenly you know. It’s time to start something new and trust in the magic of beginnings.” - Meister Eckhart
I hope the beginning of February brings you some joy and peace. Wishing you a wonderful week. I appreciate you being here.
Claire x
Something about that solitary snowdrop really resonated with me. Makes me think how we humans pave our path through this world alone and little by little we're joined by others walking a similar path.
Excited for your journey, and yet again, I see my own journey reflected in it. Wonder if the similar age has something to do with it...this kind of mid-life (re)awakening to our true passions and the built-up courage to just follow it. :)
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